It

I'm screaming my silent screams.
You can't hear it, no;
But if you look closer, you can see,
The vines on my throat turning black, turning sharp,
Slowly carving out my veins, digging into my skin,
Scratching off my voice with Its bloodied tendrils;

And sometimes, you'll see my eyes wide and shining with unshed tears,
As I tried fending off Its mighty hold, slowly unraveling Its choking restraints;
And then, just as the vines loosens, I shout out my exclaims of joy,
My defense weakens, and It chokes me again.

Every time It strikes back, It becomes stronger;
And I am no longer strong enough keep to fighting It alone,
Thus I lay here, silently screaming, slowly dying,
Waiting for the sure scythe to release me from my pain.

Pottermore

Today I'm going to talk about Pottermore :D

Loljk.
I don't know what to say.
I'm doing my assignment. currently. I think.

Kbai.

I love you, Jimmy Page!!

Some of my collections <3 cute Jimmy, cute Jimmy EVERYWHEREEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Wrapped in a blanket.

He looked so innocent it hurtssss

Still my Jimmy.

Robert Plant, Jimmy Page, John Bonham, John Paul Jones.

[Led Zeppelin]

EYES

<3

My ultimate favourite :)

Oxymoronic

I am the loud silence,
the bright darkness,
the cruel kindness.
I am the bringer of fear,
the carrier of hope.
The lost that is found.
The sky on the ground.
I am Me.

Random

A friend of mine's been writing this very interesting short story..  It's the first work of his that I have actually read, and among the first friend-work I've actually paid attention to (aside from Abang and Kakak).

I'm going to wait till he finishes, and I'll write him a review. I want to write for Kakak and Abang as well.. but their works are in Bahasa Melayu (NOT MY FORTE)..

Till then, work hard, Neruvatar!!!

enviwenvenvuia

i just needed to type shit.

i want him i want i want i want him so bad its driving me mad, it's driving me maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad

Gila.

Aku gila.
Kau pun gila.
Kita semua, satu dunia, semuanya gila.

Eh,Tak mengaku.
Ada ke spesis hamba Allah lain yang minum susu hamba Allah yang bukan berasal dari spesisnya sendiri?
Ada ke spesis yang mampu memanipulasi spesis lain, yang hidup, bernafas, punya struktur organisasi kehidupan; dibelah-siat, dimasak, dicampur chemical untuk menjadi produk lain?

Kalau mereka yang merekacipta tak gila, tak wujud sabun. Tak wujud susu lembu.
Kalau adam dan hawa yang asalnya tak gila, kita tak akan lahir. Tak akan dapat fesbuk/twitter teman lain.
Apa yang bermain dalam akal Adam, hingga terpanggil nafsu untuk menyorong anunya kedalam vulva Hawa, kalau bukan Gila?
Gila.
Fikir dulu, lain kali, sebelum sesukanya melabel orang lain "gila".

Gila!

Ouch.

I've thought this over..
I'm not comfortable enough with myself.
I actually preferred the blue monster (as my DP) compared to my real picture.

What,The, FUCK.

Define, Definition.

H: Who am I, to you?
F: ...
H: Silence. Silence isn't a good thing; is it, now?
F: Not necessarily. 
H: Elaborate.
F: I'm silent because I have no answer to your question.
H: No answer? I'm nothing, then. Nothing.
F: You should stop jumping into conclusions.
H: ...
F: *stares into H's eyes* I have nothing to say, because I don't want to label you as my "anything". I don't want to limit who you are/can be to me. Let there be no restrictions. Let there..
H: Okay.
F: I haven't finished talking.
H: Good.
F: ?
H: I don't want you to finish, now you've said what you said. If you do, you're indirectly giving me a definition, thus labeling. Let me stay "undefined".
F: :)
H: :)

What. The. Fuck.

Exam.
No Study.
Will flunk.
Die!

Drug.

I can't quit you, so I'm gonna put you down for a while..


Disturbed. I think I need to do some mental tuning. Change personality, one more time. It's bad, I know.. The sacrifices that are to be made.. Another life, another soul..

But hey, this is my world I'm living, and I have all the rights to be self centered.

Tomorrow.

Stop

Stop.
No crying, no moaning, no groaning.
I'm strong. SuperWoman, remember??


I HEREBY SOLEMNLY PROMISE THAT I'LL NEVER CRY AGAIN, EVER.

Worlds, lost.

I'm brokenhearted today..
I woke up with a such high feeling of love;
Went to bed with the deepest of hatreds..

Hopefully Roy arrived home safely. He was really sleepy. Poor guy.

And this is Kurt!!!*random*

I missed him. Eventhough I never had the chance to know him.. (he died when I was 1. Dammittt)

I really need a break. All these stress is taking a toll on my mental health. Honestly, I feel like the old, mentally unstable me is coming back. I'm getting my anger spurts again...

And this is Jimmy :D

                    5 year old Jimmy Page, all cute and cuddly, but already rockin'  :)

I think I need therapy.
That, or longer sleeping hours.

Wrath

Hey.

Piano comp semis: SETTLED. That's one thing off my plate :D
Got on ragemode, cried alone in the loo (drama queen) and Adeline took me screaming :) after I punched Leon (poor guy)... Then went to Sakira and talked about sex (made me relax :p ).

Lame account of the day, I know..

Backstabbers.

You know, those people whom pretends to be nice and shit, but they fuck you up from behind? Yeah.

If only we live in a country w/out laws...

Crap.

So I went to the market and tripped on a green kitten with no toe

I checked in my pockets for the half of a whole hole.

Tied to my nurse with no purse

I can't sleep.

You there with a gun in your mouth,

Speak up and speak out

Where did you put my little guitar with one string?

Sold it for cabbages for Tuesday Fair's fare?

Scarlet your blood is as blue as the sea,

I want to dance for the bag of my tea

my,my,the crocodiles cried

for they wanted to hear me sing

how,how,how can I sing? 

The Walrus sold my guitar with one string

That paper he gave me that sad day

oh,if only I can throw it away!

Ever since my tongue learned to play

silenced I am to whom that it may.

I'm not going to listen for hearing requires no listening

talking does not need the speaking.

drowned as drowned can be,

He who sold my one stringed guitar to the man who lived under the sea ( says he)

He who tells me to just Let It Be.

He still speaks to me.

Frying eggs on a woman.

Gets ready for tea.

The little things I learned

on my trip to the negative alkali.

Sleepy. Wrote. Giggled.

So close,

Yet so far away

Every moment I feel you,

No more than a tingle on the tips of my fingers

Your voice vibrates on the back of my head

Delicious,as dark as sin...

one word,

and you send me to euphoric oblivion

one touch,

and you bring apocalypse to my sanity

one kiss...

and you shatter my silent lucidity

Have you wondered how painful it is

Every time you bid goodbye?

Your glass tears

spears through my throbbing heart

Your unforgiving words

Draws the air out of my hungry lungs

as I gasp for your sympathy-don't leave me alone

Each of the parting waves of your hand,

Slides around my tired frame,

Trying to squeeze out my tattered soul

Crushing my will,

Like a cruel python

hungry,

demanding for more

And every step you take (away from me)

I come crashing down the floor

Dying,dead.died.

one question left unanswered

one answer left untried

can you hear my silent screams in your head?

Please, come home..

I missed the way you laugh,

I missed the way you would bend down when you want to speak to me "eye-to-eye" ,

I missed the way you cry when you listen to wordless piano solos,

I missed the way you would threaten to drink all of my coke if I wouldn't listen to what you're going to say,

I missed how you choose to ignore what people say to you,and how you would tell me to do the same..I still don't know how to do that,you know..but at least those times I had you to tell me not to listen,to just be true to myself..

Now,even when I don't have you by my side,I can hear you in my heart, your tinkling laugh, your groans of disappointment, your favourite Moonlight Sonata..

I wish you would just come back.
I forgave you, now it's your turn to forgive me.

Forgive my arrogance. I still love you.